As I mentioned in my last blog, I am currently on a sabbatical. I am attempting, poorly I might add, to unwind, get refreshed, and find some peace in my heart.
Because of recent trauma I have gone through in the church and my family, this has been a difficult time in my life. I have trouble sleeping, and I have battled, for the first time in my life, with waves of unworthiness and depression.
Yet the past few days, I’m beginning to regain my spiritual, emotional, and mental equilibrium. I have a renewed sense of God’s love and my identity in Him.
I am realizing that my life has been too hurried, maybe “harried” is a better word, the past few years. The simple essence of hurry is too much to do and too little time to do it.
I want to be delivered from hurry. From iPhone addiction, endless meetings, and troubled relationships, hurry kills my spirit.
Jesus was never in a hurry. I want to be more like Jesus.
The good of being delivered from hurry is not simply pleasure, but the ability to do more of what you love calmly and effectively with joy. It’s the strength and joy to do what really matters.
What is the leadership axiom? “As go the leaders, so goes the church.” Busted.
So, my vision is to slow down, wrap my heart around abiding in Christ, and start living again as a Jesus disciple.
I would rather accomplish less and love Jesus more.
Thus, this will be my last official blog while I’m on sabbatical. I want to practice what I preach. If I get really inspired, I might send out a blog again, but for the next couple of months I’m truly going to sabbatical from everything that makes my life a hurry.
Pastor Steve
